It’s a funny old thing, blogging. You are profoundly aware of the fact that what you are really doing is documenting things for yourself. Or I am at least. That was why I originally started this blog. I wanted to have a place where I would document the every day things, appreciating the little things in life, encouraging myself to take photographs and hold on to memories of just normal life.
It has been something I have immensely enjoyed and has been incredibly rewarding. I have already enjoyed looking back at slightly older posts and remembering fun times. As such, I realise there is no real need to explain why I have been away from the blog for over a month. I am not sure anyone cares, and that is of course understandable. I know people read this blog and I love getting comments, but I am under no illusion that there is anyone who really misses my blogging when it’s not around.
To put it simply, blogging is very time consuming. That is not an excuse just an explanation. I have been and will continue to be incredibly busy, but I have really missed blogging over this last month. Some lovely things have happened: Christmas with Fraser, Christmas at home with the family, coming back to Edinburgh, getting on with my coursework. So I feel I don’t need to feel guilty about having been away from blogging. It was right for a while so that I could really enjoy everything that was happening around me.
But as I have missed it, I have stayed up late tonight and finally sorted through a few photographs. What it has made me realise is that I really want to continue this blog. Not because I think this blog necessarily means anything to anyone else. But because I know that I will be grateful for it when I one day am able to look back at this time and at who I was at 25, what my life was like and what I did.
I am also aware that things are about to get even more busy as my Masters course heats up. So there may be more absences from blogging on the horizon. But sometimes distance gives us clarity. And that is what this time away from blogging has done for me. It has made me realise that even if I sometimes fail in my immediate goals, and don’t document all the many things I would like to, I should at least try. And so that is what I will do: continue to try and blog as often as my schedule allows. Because I know that in the future I will be so happy that I made the time for it.
I am preparing and will be publishing this week my long overdue Christmas posts and then hopefully be getting back to regular blogging. If there is anyone out there reading this, I love reading any comments and hearing people’s thoughts. Aside from everything else, I feel blogs are good place to share.